day13 - allons-y!
dear luci,
another short one! it's 1am as I'm writing this oops.
today, as with many days recently, i have been thinking about the shape and direction of my life. this stemmed from a video I was sent by a lovely human (sorry for stealing one of your links June).
Over the years, I have bounced back and forth from extremes when deciding how I want to live my life. Quiet and comfortable? Or loud and audacious? I'm a pretty flexible thinker, but it's crazy to me that I have been so rigid in my belief that I can't have both, I must pick one. I am so afraid of the prospect of stagnation by way of comfort, but equally terrified of the idea that my hunger to learn, do, be so many different things will proclude my ability to find said comfort and companionship.
DBT (the cool therapy cult 1 that saved my life) is founded on the premise of the dialectic. The idea that two contradictory truths can be held at the same time. The idea is that you try to find the "middle path". Use your machete (coping skills?) to create a way through the dense jungle that exists between extremes. So Yes, I will find a way through, I will live however I want, and the rest will come along (hopefully).
Anyway, that'll do me for the night, I spent an hour writing a very impassioned review of a movie I didn't like, and I'm very sleepy. Before I drift off, I am filled with renewed hope, love, and a little bit of trepidation. Let's all take this crazy journey into the unknown together. Allons-y.
Sweet dreams, Luci <3
It isn't a cult in any way, shape, or form— I'm just really enthusiastic about it.↩