day93 - required reading
dear luci,
i want to share some panels that have affected me recently.
x-men #24 (1993)
"It ain't the dyin' you should be afraid of [...]. But not livin' your life t' the fullest before your time-- that should frighten you, girl."
gambit #1 (1993)
"Don't want to wait until conditions are perfect... 'cause with the likes of us, they never are.
x-force #31 (1993)
"Didn't you know that if she starts helpin' herself, then she might not need you anymore?"
"Maybe that's the price of friendship."
thanks for bearing with me there.
as i approach my hundredth entry, i am increasingly sceptical that they should continue-- at least at the same level of regularity.
this blog is a reaction to the impersonal nature of mainstream social media. it is an attempt to build a home on the web, rather than a storefront with flashy lights to draw in the biggest crowd.
these posts were never intended to stand-in for genuine human interaction. but i feel like i have turned myself into one of those franchises whose shitty tv shows are suddenly vital to the experience of their mainline (also shitty) films.
"have you read my latest blog post? no? this might not make sense then." "feel free to check my blog if you're wondering how i'm doing"
suddenly my life has fucking supplemental material, a required-reading list to get to know me. i occasionally use this blog to transmit messages i don't otherwise have the energy to send individually. is that efficient? clever? or is that just fucking sad?? i tried to open a window in my mind and installed a one-way mirror instead. imagine if you asked someone how they're going and they hand you their diary to read through.
it proves its value only insofar as it convinces me that i'm not losing touch with my loved ones-- that i can retreat to my fortress and still broadcast messages to the outside. but that is a small and false comfort.
as usual, the cat cannot decide whether she prefers the comfort of the indoors, or the freedom of the outdoors.
she'll figure it out someday.
sweet dreams, luci <3