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I've decided to start a new series, yes, it's technically cheating, these are all supposed to be letters to Luci, but this is the easiest place to put these thoughts and occasionally people in my life even bother to read them.
so these will just be some non-luci thoughts.
lately i've been upset. i've very clearly been going through something big. i've clearly been through the wringer. and we all have shit going on. of course. in their defence, some of them don't know.
but of those who do... some have reached out to him. some have organised to spend time with him. they have not extended that same courtesy to me. i have given so much of myself to these people. they have gladly accepted it, of course, I offered it, that doesn't make them bad people.
of course i feel a less justifiable anger towards plenty of people who don't know because they haven't bothered to check in for months now. again, they're just busy.
if you're reading this, you actually give a shit enough to pay attention to me, passively. you click the links I share when I say I've written something I'm proud of. you talk to me. you give a shit.
that should mean something to me, and it does, quality over quantity, trust me. but unfortunately I'm still mad about all the others. fuck them. fuck them, and not "fuck you", because they're not reading this.
and thank fucking god for that.
I'll gladly keep those sons of bitches out of this beautiful little space I've built.