s02e21 - shorter than expected
this is the episode at the end of the season that runs inexplicably short. the episode which breaks momentum by failing to bring us any closer to a resolution. maybe you just get some quiet, character-driven piece. maybe it's a bottle episode. its place in the wider season makes you scratch your head. "why place this story here?". who knows. writers strike? contract dispute? it's impossible to say.
all this to justify the piece you read in front of you. i wanted to write, but I had nothing to say. really, I have a lot to say, but none of the words to say it with. I'm tired.
yet there is something about saying you're too tired to write whilst writing nonetheless. even if I'm not saying much of substance, the act in its purest form is important to me, tonight.
I will make my wishes I will list some things I will find the energy to go on
- I want to own cats, one day
- I want to create a space of my own to be proud of
- I want to be vivid and lively
- I want my appetite for knowledge to return, alongside my motivation to sate it
- I want to break from or loosen the chains around my mind and body
- I want high intensity mousing to be cute and energetic, not just sarcastic and lethargic.
- I want to embrace my heyday
- I want to be loved for it
so I've done what I set out to do. if only it were so easy. life can be better. i will find a way to make it so.
see you in the finale.